So here goes a semi-forced blog post.
After my high school graduation on Monday I've been in and out of the post-grad blues slump phase. To think that I now have to abandon and leave my routinely life to set foot in the real world really grabbed me by the shoulders. I don't even feel old enough to be eighteen, let alone to leave school?
The serious yet not-so-serious atmosphere of my school will always linger in the back of my mind....
How do people do it? Just leaving things behind like it never mattered? I feel like I've poured out all possible running fluid in my body this past week, whether it may be crying at my own graduation or at others (like WTH). Seeing other people at their emotional wreck has its counter-effects on me. I am some how attempting to consolidate my emotions of the past week into this one post, but honestly the experience was too overwhelming and chaotic that it cannot be described in words. I hope to swim back out of this slump soon because if I don't I'll be facing serious consequences (like a MYSTERY ATAR).
Meanwhile on a more happier and exciting note, I am trying to organise a (partially) surprise birthday but the bloody birthday boy will not cooperate (GET IT? HAHAHAHA). Hopefully it turns out okay...but it was through this experience that I learnt how hard organising one simple event can be. Kudos to all the organisers out there, my respect levels for you have risen by +1000!
Hmm...realistically I only have 20 days until the HSC. Twenty days to really make a difference. I'm not using my time effectively though. Someone really needs to get me going...
Anyway I'll be saying bye for now (but not forever~)
xx
Sunday, September 22, 2013
Friday, August 30, 2013
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Hola extraño! (Which also means, hey there stranger),
It's been a while since the last time I blogged, I've just been neglecting this page due to pure laziness. (Not that anyone reads this thing..)
I finally have a bit of time to myself (no, not really) before the big weekend hits. By big weekend I mean tutoring for 6 hrs and a big father's day gathering. The father's day gathering is so necessary right now, I'll have a chance to catch up with my family friends and kind of gravitate away from the study stress for a minute period of time. Oh and speaking of father's day, I went to burwood today after school to look for a gift for my dad. It was a lot harder than I had anticipated...but I am pleased with the end result!
I don't really have much to say about the past few days, other than it being plain boring. Just studying after studying, add a bit of procrastination then studying again. I did watch The Conjuring on Monday with a couple of friends... Biggest mistake I've made in a long time. I still stain the aftermath of that horrible movie.. (As in..I would check for ghosts under my bed and in my closet before I go to bed). I'm horrible with horror (HAH) but I always scrap random bits of courage to watch it and obviously regret it afterwards.
Graduation is in less than 3 weeks. I'm starting to appreciate each day of school I have left with my cohort that the thought of leaving them brings tears to my eyes (literally). I feel like I've taken everything for granted, my friends, teachers and the school itself so I'm really feeling reluctant to leave. I guess this is the only downside to having a small grade, that we've formed such a close network of friends, where each individual's character and personality is appreciated and to be without them, would deteriorate big part of our lives. And here I go again, putting an antic disposition on life.
I guess that's the end of my ramble....I hope you don't feel too peeved about having spent a couple of minutes on this pointless blog!
P.S: Modern Family is so good!!
It's been a while since the last time I blogged, I've just been neglecting this page due to pure laziness. (Not that anyone reads this thing..)
I finally have a bit of time to myself (no, not really) before the big weekend hits. By big weekend I mean tutoring for 6 hrs and a big father's day gathering. The father's day gathering is so necessary right now, I'll have a chance to catch up with my family friends and kind of gravitate away from the study stress for a minute period of time. Oh and speaking of father's day, I went to burwood today after school to look for a gift for my dad. It was a lot harder than I had anticipated...but I am pleased with the end result!
I don't really have much to say about the past few days, other than it being plain boring. Just studying after studying, add a bit of procrastination then studying again. I did watch The Conjuring on Monday with a couple of friends... Biggest mistake I've made in a long time. I still stain the aftermath of that horrible movie.. (As in..I would check for ghosts under my bed and in my closet before I go to bed). I'm horrible with horror (HAH) but I always scrap random bits of courage to watch it and obviously regret it afterwards.
Graduation is in less than 3 weeks. I'm starting to appreciate each day of school I have left with my cohort that the thought of leaving them brings tears to my eyes (literally). I feel like I've taken everything for granted, my friends, teachers and the school itself so I'm really feeling reluctant to leave. I guess this is the only downside to having a small grade, that we've formed such a close network of friends, where each individual's character and personality is appreciated and to be without them, would deteriorate big part of our lives. And here I go again, putting an antic disposition on life.
I guess that's the end of my ramble....I hope you don't feel too peeved about having spent a couple of minutes on this pointless blog!
P.S: Modern Family is so good!!
Sunday, August 25, 2013
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Well here I go...
It is 11:15PM as we speak (or type, or whatever) and I would like to give myself a pat on the back for today's achievements. Despite it being a Sunday, I was able to get my lazy bum off bed to study... the only downside is that I fumbled trying to turn off one of my many alarms and dropped my phone in the process! (It's alive and well though).
When I went to discovery to study, I saw the usual lot with their heads down. They never fail to amaze me with their ability to keep focused and motivated...it's like they LIKE studying...?! Due to their inability to converse or procrastinate during their study time, I had to conform to avoid the awkward silence. It was pretty productive in the sense that I was able to complete two CSSA past papers (Chemistry and Maths) in attempt to some what "be like them". If only I could keep up this pattern until the HSC....And on that note...I am seriously worried for my future. I stumbled and fell so low during the Trials, it almost seems impossible to make up for my spill in the externals. When other students ask for my results and I tell them "Yeah I failed", their interpretation of 'fail' seems to be -a pass but not an exceptional result-, because they always chuckle to themselves and tell me "I'm sure you did fine". It's like 'no dear 99.95 recipient, I am not you and I fail at studying'. Hmph.
It also doesn't help that some of my friends are being weird and angry...I understand that everyone in Year 12 is going through some kind of emotional breakdown with only 49 days left until Paper 1, but that isn't the queue for you to start messing with other people's stable minds. It's time like these where I wish I had a "delete" button to remove certain people from my life.... (wow that sounds so cruel) so I guess it's safe to say that I'm fed up with fake-friendships. Don't get me wrong though, I have a group of amazing best friends at school, the ones that came and never left. As soon as our eyes meet from across the corridors, we beam and run towards each other for hugs and we're able to find humour in the littlest of things. Lunch times can never be more rewarding and funny. It's so sad to think that all of this would be gone within the matter of weeks, the laughter, the cuddles, the inside jokes... I'm tearing up thinking about it WOW!!!! (CONTROL YOUR HORMONES DAHEE).
Anyway...
I just realised how pointless this blog is...its full of rambles, complaints and irrelevant information, so if you're reading this....good on you! You'll be excited to know that the purpose of this blog is for that very reason, for me to complain, ramble and rage about things..
P.S: I previously owned blogs of all sorts, but none like this where it involves such intimacy...I feel so weird writing it.
P.P.S: I probably could have written a full essay with the time taken to process this blog (oops) don't tell my mother.
Bye! P:-) <--- that is a smiley wearing a snapback #swag
It is 11:15PM as we speak (or type, or whatever) and I would like to give myself a pat on the back for today's achievements. Despite it being a Sunday, I was able to get my lazy bum off bed to study... the only downside is that I fumbled trying to turn off one of my many alarms and dropped my phone in the process! (It's alive and well though).
When I went to discovery to study, I saw the usual lot with their heads down. They never fail to amaze me with their ability to keep focused and motivated...it's like they LIKE studying...?! Due to their inability to converse or procrastinate during their study time, I had to conform to avoid the awkward silence. It was pretty productive in the sense that I was able to complete two CSSA past papers (Chemistry and Maths) in attempt to some what "be like them". If only I could keep up this pattern until the HSC....And on that note...I am seriously worried for my future. I stumbled and fell so low during the Trials, it almost seems impossible to make up for my spill in the externals. When other students ask for my results and I tell them "Yeah I failed", their interpretation of 'fail' seems to be -a pass but not an exceptional result-, because they always chuckle to themselves and tell me "I'm sure you did fine". It's like 'no dear 99.95 recipient, I am not you and I fail at studying'. Hmph.
It also doesn't help that some of my friends are being weird and angry...I understand that everyone in Year 12 is going through some kind of emotional breakdown with only 49 days left until Paper 1, but that isn't the queue for you to start messing with other people's stable minds. It's time like these where I wish I had a "delete" button to remove certain people from my life.... (wow that sounds so cruel) so I guess it's safe to say that I'm fed up with fake-friendships. Don't get me wrong though, I have a group of amazing best friends at school, the ones that came and never left. As soon as our eyes meet from across the corridors, we beam and run towards each other for hugs and we're able to find humour in the littlest of things. Lunch times can never be more rewarding and funny. It's so sad to think that all of this would be gone within the matter of weeks, the laughter, the cuddles, the inside jokes... I'm tearing up thinking about it WOW!!!! (CONTROL YOUR HORMONES DAHEE).
Anyway...
I just realised how pointless this blog is...its full of rambles, complaints and irrelevant information, so if you're reading this....good on you! You'll be excited to know that the purpose of this blog is for that very reason, for me to complain, ramble and rage about things..
P.S: I previously owned blogs of all sorts, but none like this where it involves such intimacy...I feel so weird writing it.
P.P.S: I probably could have written a full essay with the time taken to process this blog (oops) don't tell my mother.
Bye! P:-) <--- that is a smiley wearing a snapback #swag
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